Friday, 25 March 2011

A Letter to a Bestfriend

with the Bestfriend on the shore.. ;))

And the people who Love Her!!  
"If you're alone, I'll be your shadow.  If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder.
  If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow.  If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile.  
But anytime you need a friend,
I'll just be me."

You're maybe wondering why I wrote you a letter when I could have just told you whatever I wanted. Well, you just don't know that I've been thinking on what to give you on this very special day. I thought maybe a hotdog pillow that will warm you up every time you go to sleep? Or a nice clothe that  you can use when you go to the office? Or a pair of earrings  that you can wear when you attend to some events? Urgh. It's just so hard.. I want to give you more than that.. Thing is, aside from I can't afford it..(lol) you already have all of those. 

I then thought, why dont I just give you something you can treasure forever? Something intangible yet meaningful. If you find it like that.. hahaha ;) You deserve every word I write here. You deserve every effort I put in order to make this a lil bit organized. hahaha :)

Alright, seriously.. There's so many things I want to thank You. And forever isn't enough to pay you back. You've been one of the best persons this world has ever have. And today, on your.. ahem.. let me not say the number.. twenty-blank birthday.. haha.. the people surrounding you rejoices for they were given a precious gift from God. A precious that will not fade forever. And I want you to know, that I'm one of those people.

Thank you for joining my roller-coaster rides. You've been there when I needed you most.. You've been  also there when I didn't need you most. Haha. Thank you for going with the flow even if my jokes weren't really funny. Oh, not really. You laugh cause we're both insane. Thank you for the "libres" and the funny moments. Thank You for coming over to check on me..Thank you for always inviting me even if there's no reasons at all. Thank you for telling me what im supposed to hear, not just what i want to hear. Thank you for being intolerance. Ugh, If I'm gonna write down everything, My page wont be enough to thank you for everything you did.

I wish you all the best. Well, very common message but what else is there to say.. you just deserve nothing but the best. And Im just happy for whatever's coming in your way.. Im so lucky to be your bestfriend. I wont exchange anything for that.
I wont hope that we'll stay friends forever.. Cause I know we will <3

Happy Birthday Bessy. Again, I'm always gonna be here in good times and bad times.. til death do us part.. hahahaha ;)

Oh btw, please stop watching children shows. It annoys me ;p kiddin' Love Yah ;D hahaha.

I hope you appreciate this letter. It's my gift to you on your birthday. Oh diba? haha. Hi-tech na :) 
Happy Happy Birthday !!! 

Lots of Love
Your Bestfriend.. 
Bessy Jazsie :)

Sunday, 20 March 2011

Where are we now .... ?

Do you remember the first time we met? Everything was awkward. It looked so funny.
Do you remember the new year that we're together? that was the first time i held your hands. 
you were sad cause you thought i dont love you.. but lil' did you know, that was the moment I fell in love with you.

I remember the times when you would tell me not to put on make up..
i remember the days when we ride on a motorbike and we'll get caught by corrupt officers.
I remember the moments when I asked if you are okay, and you would try hard to smile to hide from me.. but i know you very well, i will then nag at you.. til you 'll say what's wrong.. then there goes the lil arguments.. and the next day, we're okay. How could we get along so well that whenever we talk about our dreams, we couldn't wait for the future to come?

Then came the day you needed to leave me.. i was so sad. I was just watching as your plane flew into the thin clouds. I told myself that I shouldn't feel sad cause It's just the beginning of everything. When you get home, you'll start building up our dreams. And i just have to wait.. Oh, i remember it so well when you said, "good things happen to those who wait" So, I waited for your promise.. that we'll still see each other again.

Where are you now? Where is the man I thought I'll share my life with? Where is the good man who can be the greatest role model of any other man. I dont know you anymore. What happened to our promises? You hate me and curse me for a worthless thing. You are willing to destroy everything over a nonsense thing. 

I hope you didnt listen to your madness. I hope I was strong enough to hold on after everything  we've been through. I hope I could still stand your madness. But i couldn't. It was already too much. 

Wherever you are right now.. I know you are happy. i want nothing but the best for you. And I have loved you. i still love you.. But I need to be stronger. i need to move on.. 

As the song goes, 

Because you've gone and left me standing all alone..
And i know i've got to face tomorrow on my own..
Before i let you go, i want to say.. I love you..

Song from the heart

Put away the pictures, put away the memories
I put over and over through my tears
I've held them 'til I'm blind, they kept my hope alive
As if somehow that i'd keep you here
Once you believe in a love forevermore
How do you leave it in a drawer

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone
Guess I'm just learning, learning the art of letting go
[ Lyrics from: ]
Try to say it's over, say the word good bye
But each time it catches in my throat
You're still here in me and I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friends forevermore
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone
Guess I'm just learning, learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade, what can I do
But try to make it through the pain
Of one more day without you

Where do I start to live my life alone
I guess I'm learning, only learning
Learning the art of letting go